in which we try to maintain better posture
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My mother talks about the troubles of getting him here, how he went to bed and loudly refused to get out. He sits directly across from her and I realize he is not listening or, more likely, does not know it is him we are speaking about. 

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People often think I am safe. Children and animals are correct. People are often wrong. I have been mistaken for a mirror, a punching bag, a solution. I have never been the solution.

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Sometimes I forget the mountains, but today my eyes search for them through the Lorax-like clearings of trees ripped away by logging companies. Everything is a muted, dusty brown. The trees and ferns that line the roads are covered in layers of it. There is no sign of the island’s many mountains. What I think is lingering mist in the air, I soon realize, is also dust.

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I read several essays about travel and home and all of them make me cry. I am exhausted with constantly bathing myself in nostalgia and rinsing it off with other people’s well-crafted sentences. Cities are beginning to mean less to me. Nostalgia is, too. You can be miserable anywhere. You can be happy, too. I am tired of tallying up my sins and organizing them by zip code.

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He clips and I feel it in the very center of my body. I wonder how they can say, every time, every doctor, that I may want to take an ibuprofen an hour before, I might have slight cramping. The pain shoots up my spine, arching my back and opening my jaw to my chest. My eyes don’t squeeze shut until I realize I have been staring wide-eyed at the lights long enough to make them burn. 

“All done,” he assures me. Tissue gone and into a cup.

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I replaced the copy of A People’s History of the United States I lent you that never came back. I stopped maniacally repeating the list of what was found in your body that morning, as if memorizing it would let me take something out. I stopped waking in the middle of the night with concrete understandings of what happened, figured out in dreams. I stopped beating myself up for not remembering those answers in the morning. Answers that I know will never come.



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You remember why it has gone on so long in this moment, but, for once, it doesn’t change what happened in that chair. Your love is a ticking time bomb now. Your love is something you left in another room. You want to love this familiar person, but the distance feels unchangeable now. You’re not sure you have another Christmas or silent car ride in you.